As I sit here in my dark lounge room, I am mesmerized by the Christmas tree lights that fill me with a sense of peace and warmth, as the different colours of the tree lights flicker. I love this time of night when everything is quiet, and one can just be. Tomorrow is Epiphany Day and as per tradition, I will pack up the Christmas Tree and all the decorations that adorn the living room. The moonbeam glistening on the pool water catches my attention and I feel that I am being called outside to stand under the night sky and gaze up at the stars, and I am reminded that the Maggi or wisemen followed the stars to find baby Jesus. Shepherds saw angels and the wisemen were guided. The stars have guided many travellers over the centuries, and I am in deep appreciation of the light that illuminates our path. Outside in the night air is a place of serenity that fosters deep contemplation. There are so many traditions over the centuries that we have forgotten or not valued. Now that I know what Epiphany Day is, I will forever cherish it, as it marks when I awoke from a spiritual slumber and my path was illuminated. Epiphany day, 1992 the light of the Angel radiated in my bedroom and delivered me my life-maps. In 1995 the gift of Calebs near arrival and then in January 2020 in Scotland I found the meaning of the last life-map vision being the sack of money under the tree.
I knew that the 6th of January had always been such a special day for me but I didn’t know the significance of that date. To honour that day, we had decided to travel to the very top of Scotland with the anticipated hope that we might see the Northern Aurora Borealis Lights. It is only as I was writing this that I realised that Sleeping Beauties name was Aurora.
Researching the name, it was with a peaceful inner reassurance that I read Aurora means “Dawn” which is mystical and romantic name, as this Epiphany day, the day I was chasing the Northern Night lights and Rainbows. I certainly awoke like Sleeping Beauty to a very mystical new way of living. I will look forward to completing this tomorrow as it is nearly 9pm. Time to post and say good night. I will edit the rest in of my writing tomorrow and update.
Tonight I will sleep with anticipation to see what is illuminated tomorrow.
It is time to embrace truth and a stop believing the lies of “Happily Ever After Fairytales” or the ‘Happiness and Prosperity Doctrine, as these set us up for disillusionment which affects our mental health and overall wellbeing. Our worldview of life creates our interpretation of our reality. Unfortunately many of us, including me, think if life is not good, then innately I must be doing something bad. However when we look through the four lenses of Theology, Spirituality, Philosophy and Psychology it helps us to find meaning in our suffering and embrace the Spirit of Wisdom. Pearls represent wisdom gained through experience just as a pearl begins to from a piece of grit that get into the shell; an unwanted intrusion that the oyster coats with protective layers in an effort to protect itself from the invader, until over time, it forms a beautiful pearl.
We are instructed in Proverbs 4:6-7 Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you; love her, and she will watch over you. The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding. Wow! Though it costs all you have get wisdom! What does that mean? Life is not a fairytale, it is not a hedonistic view point that life is easy, in fact it is coming face to face with the fact that suffering is something we all will endure. Our trials and tribulations will be different for each of us, we need to share our wisdom as there is freedom and inspiration in sharing. “If wisdom were given me under the express condition that it must be kept hidden and not uttered, I should refuse it. No good thing is pleasant to possess, without friends to share it.” — Epictetus The song “I Am Woman” by Helen Reddy has inspired generations to embrace Wisdom as the lyrics resonates with our soul; “Oh Yes I am wise but it’s wisdom born of pain” as at a deep subconscious level we know this is the truth. Pain is part of our journey. We have compared ourselves to others and been lulled into a belief that life is easy for others, and then we question what is wrong with us. The simple fact is, we have forgotten to share our pain, we only promote our triumphs. So todays blog will be about some of my pain interwoven with hope.
Carl Jung stated “Suffering that is not understood is hard to bear, while on the other hand, it is often astounding to see how much a person can endure when he understands the why and wherefore. This is a hard concept to grasp, how can there be; a why and wherefore especially when we look through a ‘trauma informed lense’. Trauma is Trauma.
As a counsellor who embraces all 4 pillars of self; theology, psychology, philosophy and spirituality, there are times I have learnt to give more weight to one discipline than others. With trauma I believe it needs to be seen ” from a higher perspective,” as part as a Spiritual Quest of the Soul to reconnect to God and to be able to see and hear things in the spiritual realm. In Isaiah 30: 19 People of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you. 20 Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. 21 Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”22 Then you will desecrate your idols overlaid with silver and your images covered with gold; you will throw them away like a menstrual cloth and say to them, “Away with you!”
I have spent a lot of time explaining my framework and attached a ‘youtube’ to the Stoic way of thinking below. This is because firstly I had to learn how accept the suffering in my own life before I wanted to share it with others. As Helen Reddy lyrics state wisdom is born of pain but I did not like pain and I tried my best to ensure my life as an adult became pain-free. I had endured enough pain, having been sexually molested by a neighbour at the tender age of six and I did the hard work of inner healing as I confronted the meaning and beliefs I had the adopted due to the memories and shadows that taunted me. I made inner vows that no-one was ever going to hurt me again and so I tried to make right choices, I worked hard, I believed if you treated people well they would treat you well back. But life is not fair. I think if we all accepted that truth, then we could embrace our suffering rather than being surprised when if happens. I tried to shield my children from pain and suffering, now I wished I had taught them how to navigate pain, because it is a life skill we all need. As adults they have each had their own pain to embrace, and as a Mother it is hard to stand back and watch but I have learnt that, this is their journey; the wisdom they need to learn. Francis of Assisi Serenity prayer, has helped me to navigate this ” Lord, grant me the strength to accept the things I cannot change, have courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”
It is two days till Epiphany Day and epiphany means a moment of sudden and great revelation or realisation. I have one more Life-Map image to share as well: the little boy who was standing next to the Angel. Today I want to share about the little boy. In my journal that night I wrote ” I think this a son we are meant to have .” My husband was booked in for a vasectomy that next morning. The next morning as I was telling him about the angels visit, he face appeared incredulous, as he too that night had been awoken hearing two children’s voices. I told him about seeing the little three your old boy and he said there was also a little girl here. Needless to say he did not attend the scheduled appointment that day. I had not heard stories of others meeting their children years before they were born and I learnt to be wise with whom I shared this information. Jeremiah 21:5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you.” If I was to have another son, I wanted to fall pregnant soon, but God had different plans. Caleb our son’s, due date was exactly three years later, 6th of January 1995. We could not have planned this ourselves. I knew his name was Caleb which in Hebrew means faithful, whole-hearted, loyal bold or brave. Caleb has lived up to his name he is loyal and brave and I have learnt so much from being his mother, more than anything I learnt to listen to the spiritual realm. Brave, whole-hearted and bold can also be another term for headstrong and that he was. When he was four years old, I cried out to the Lord ” Help me to parent Caleb, I am at a loss”. At this stage I was a mother of 4 Children and we also had our nephew living with us. Caleb idolised his cousin who was 16 years old, and he wanted to be out doing what his cousin was doing. Obviously there was a battle of wills, because he was only four and I thought he was too young to go with his cousin to the skatepark, he on the other hand did not. I was tired, parenting is hard work and I was feeling defeated. I also had the added layer of supporting and comforting our nephew, as he struggling after the suicide of his Dad. God heard my prayer and he showed me a vision. I was a lioness and Caleb was a lion cub, In the vision he showed me that until Calebs shadow cast longer than mine, he needed to remain in my shadow, as he did not have the height or wisdom to see danger. In the vision it showed that if I did not remain strong and keep good boundaries he would run ahead and fall down a crevice, there he would be taken along by a river and would come out the other end but there would be scars he would carry. That vision was so powerful, that It helped my resolve to not give in, to keep strong boundaries until such as a time that he was taller than me. Parenting Caleb taught me to parent spiritually and as a family we have all learnt the value of listening to spirit. We have changed plans when spiritually guided too, and then grappled with the “what if’s” as we faced the reality of what had happened at that specific time and place.
Becoming the Sage has not been an easy journey and as stated in part one, to be a Sage one requires knowledge and experience combined with a curiosity of the unknown. To be a Wise Sage one has to have has failed enough to be humble and has overcome enough to inspire. I have not always navigated through the different stages of my life with grace or gratitude, transitioning from one chapter to the next was not easy. When life got hard I would let resentment in and I would complain about our financial state and would say to my husband. “If I was working as a Nurse and not wasting time volunteering and studying we would be better off. We could afford to go on a holidays or buy an extra pair of shoes.” I would start worrying about money, how were we going to pay the electricity bill when it arrived or the car registration, we had 4 children and I was not contributing financially. I actually questioned all the decisions, I had made to this date. I missed nursing, I missed having the extra income to help pay bills, I missed my colleagues and the only good thing I could acknowledge was, no more night shift. My resentment was tearing me inside out, I could not seem to find anything to be grateful for. I lost confidence in me. I questioned the reality and my interpretation of the Angels visit. I felt lost. The mask i showed to the world that was starting to become very heavy. Each morning I would wake up and wonder why was I doing what I was doing. Was this really my destiny? Was I really going to be happy teaching, preaching and touching the hands of pregnant woman? As a habit I would sit and journal for fifteen minutes every morning and I would ask myself the question; how am I investing into my dream? I would then sit, wait and observe and little by little my life’s purpose seemed to unravel and illuminate a way forward. I had a dream about supporting and mentoring teenage pregnant girls in education and health, little did I know how much impact this program would have on the mothers, babies and partners and the joy it would bring me. By networking with other Organisation and especially Queensland Health, I would be working with Nursing colleagues again. The Hospital had Midwives work from Lifebridge(my offices) to support the teenage girls and then later a pilot program was trialed for a year for a New born and Family Drop in Service in the community. A couple days of the week, I got to work with Nurses again. To read more about the EMMA program. (Educating, Mentoring, Mothering Adolescents program) please copy and paste the below url. https://www.couriermail.com.au/news/queensland/sunshine-coast/mums-the-word/news-story/ae0138f84af807ecd70d2714086de87eThe EMMA program. (Educating, Mentoring, Mothering Adolescents program) was the brainchild of Lyn Baird, of LifeBridge, and had been operating for six months before Jody Tunnicliffe and her program Youth Partnership came on board. It received funding from the then Caloundra Council, was modelled on similar schemes operating overseas. This was over 10 years ago now but I still get to supervise and counsel Nurses through EAP Employees Assistance Program. The quotes about nursing are true, once a nurse always a nurse.
I was aware of Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz, but for some reason, I had not noticed that there was a fifth agreement published later in 2011 called ” The Fifth Agreement: A Practical Guide to Self-Mastery (Toltec Wisdom) by Don Miguel Ruiz, Don Jose Ruiz , Janet Mills which encourages us to embark on a journey to a deeper level of awareness to discover the power of “Self or who we are” so we return to our authentic selves. I was obviously not at a stage in my life to embrace this concept of living my life-map as the Sage. In part one of this blog ” Becoming the Sage,” I copied and pasted my professional Bio as I felt like I was a fraud and that I needed to justify why it was ok for me, to try and embrace the concept of becoming the Sage because I still felt like I had so much to learn. I was still wresting with question like; What is the truth? Why were books removed from the bible? What about the Dead Sea Scroll? The Fifth Agreement simply states, be skeptical, but learn to listen. Don’t believe yourself or anybody else unconditionally. Use the power of doubt to question everything you hear: Is it really the truth? Listen to the intent behind the words and you will understand the real message. Don Miguel Ruiz went on to say ” By practicing the Five Agreements, what you are really doing is respecting everything in creation. You are respecting your dream; you are respecting everybody else’s dream. If you use these tools, your effort is really for everyone, because your joy, your happiness, your peace, and your heaven are contagious. When you are happy, the people around you are happy too, and it inspires them to change their own world.” This is the life I want to live. I want to live my life respecting my dreams and I wanted to live my authentic life so I too can inspire others to live their dreams. The permission to question everything was liberating and this is the message I want share; it is ok to be skeptical, but learn to listen.
By using the power of doubt to question everything you hear, I realised that I no longer wanted to teach or preach as I no longer believed everything as I once did. Instead I want to be a facilitator who helps a person sit in the unknown and find their own life-map, their own individual destiny. We were all born with a holy plan, a life-map. To be truely happy we need to let go of our false self and embrace the amazing human being we are. In the bible Jeremiah 1:5 .“Before I shaped you in the womb, I knew all about you. Before you saw the light of day, I had holy plans for you” and again in Chapter 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” By inviting the reader to question what they are reading, gives me permission to write these blogs and publish my book. I, too am a student of life and in ten years time I might look back and say ‘I was wrong.’ But for now I am choosing to share what I am learning as this makes my soul sing. I have also given myself permission to continue writing my fictional book about Roslyn Clarke’s family from 1515 and the suffering they endured as women, the curses placed upon the family line and the legacy they have left for future generations.
To embrace my new life-map, I have had to learn to let go of preaching and teaching just like I let go of being a Registered Nurse. I have wrestled for weeks and months every time I have had to send an email to the governing bodies asking them to remove my name from the registry . I had worked and studied so hard to be registered with both Australian Health Practitioner Regulation Agency (AHPRA) as a Nurse and The International Network of Churches (INC) as a Minister of Religion yet God was asking me close the door on those chapters of my life so that I could starting living my next chapter. The time of transition is never easy and to be able to navigate through it I have had to hold onto my the new vision of being a facilitator and author. I am pleased that God has not asked me to give up Counselling, as I love what I do. What I do know is; that I have to balance my time into thirds between online course, book and clients.
Years ago I came across a great book by Rick Warren called ‘The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth Am I here For? (2013). He discusses the concept of finding your S.H.A.P.E being Spiritual gifts, Heart, Ability, Personality and Experiences. It was a course I facilitated years ago and still encourage. Please see Click to access SHAPE_Inventory.pdf.
The Four Agreements – by Don Miguel Ruiz
The First Agreement – BE IMPECCABLE WITH YOUR WORD
Speak with integrity and say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
The Second Agreement – DON’T TAKE ANYTHING PERSONALLY
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.
The Third Agreement – DON’T MAKE ASSUMPTIONS
Find the courage to ask questions and express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.
The Fourth Agreement – ALWAYS DO YOUR BEST
Doing your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are tired as opposed to well rested. Under any circumstance, simply do your best and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.
The Fifth Agreement – BE SKEPTICAL, BUT LEARN TO LISTEN
Don’t believe yourself or anybody else unconditionally. Use the power of doubt to question everything you hear: Is it really the truth? Listen to the intent behind the words and you will understand the real message.
As I sit and reflect upon my goal of writing ‘the 12 days of Christmas’ blog, I must acknowledge that it has been both enlightening and daunting. It has taken a lot of soul searching and reflection. Today I know I am writing about the images from my Life’s roadmap, but how do I tell the story? The images or moments in time; one being in a church preaching and the other, a much older version of me on stage teaching. I just want to preface this, as this was thirty years ago, it seemed like a lot older version of me. Today, I would reframe that to read a mature version of me; as age and time do not seem as relevant as they did back then. So how do I share my journey? What were the key components, the learnings and the decision made to be able to embrace my destiny? Was it easy? No! Was their failure? Yes! Did I learn? Yes!
At the same time as writing these 12 days I have been working on my new website Lynbaird.com where people can access online courses, pre-order my book and make booking for individual appointments. This goes live on the 6th of January, Epiphany Day. One of the processes was to write a page about me. Wow, was that hard! In my culture and era, it has been frowned upon to want to stand out. In Australia we even have a thing called ‘the tall poppy syndrome” which is where people of high status are resented, attacked, cut down or criticised because of their achievements, often people would question on their right to be in that position or question how did that person get to that position. Who did they know? Who did they bribe? Rarely do people celebrate or congratulate them on their hard work, the risks they took and the sacrifices they made to be where they are. Instead, they are frowned upon for standing out from their peers. Put this together with being a Christian and a woman, heaven forbid I would want to stand out. So, for the last 2 years I have been hiding.
I have known for a couple of years now that my work week needed to be divided in thirds. A third clients, a third online and the other third writing my book. So why have I been procrastinating? My darling husband challenged me and lovingly said “stop worrying about standing out, instead embrace being outstanding in your field and in your life so that you can continue to help others!” Wow, the power of changing two little words around has given me the confidence to take this next step, I am no longer worrying about standing out, instead I am going to be outstanding. This is my time to shine. The world needs wise woman (and men) as sages, for too long we have silenced them and put too much value on youth, we just need to look at how much advertising and products are available to help us look and feel younger. Instead, we should be embracing our wrinkles which give our face expression, from laughter lines to the softness of our face which radiate love, patience and acceptance. I am of an age to embrace the Wise-woman, the Sage, so I can help others journey through life stages from child to maiden/warrior, wife/husband to mother/father to wise-woman/men. The world needs the wisdom of the Sages. For me becoming the Sage has meant learning to incorporate psychology, theology, philosophy and spirituality into my day-to-day life. (Definition in footnotes). To be a Sage one requires knowledge and experience combined with curiosity of the unknown. To be a wise sage one has failed enough to be humble and has overcame enough to inspire.
The vision I had of me teaching materialised at the 2019 Asia Pacific Rim Confederation of Counselling Conference where I presented as Expert Speaker on Fostering Healthy Relationships; The Dance of Intimacy. This was recorded by the Mental Health Academy and is online with the following Expert Bio. Lyn Baird is the Founding Executive Director, Life Bridge Counselling & Psychology has a Masters in Counselling and a Graduate Diploma of Business Administration. She has had management experience of more than 35 years in Community, Education and Health sector, has a successful counselling business and sits on a not-for-profit board that offers Supported Accommodation for Women and Children in Crisis. She has also been training accredited course both in Australia and overseas for the last 20 years. Lyn career began as a Registered Nurse. She has worked as Counsellor for the past 20 years, she is Level 4 member of the Australian Counselling Association (ACA) and recognized provider for Counselling for those with Private Health Insurance. She is a registered supervisor and specializes in Grief & loss, Childhood Trauma and Relationship Counselling being L3 Gottman Relationship accredited.
When did I become that person? Why has it taken me another two years to embrace being the WiseWoman/Sage? Why have I been hiding? Honestly It was because I knew there was an aspect of me that needed further training and development. I needed to learn the ways of the mystics, the gnostics, the saints and embrace old spiritual practices.
By choosing to be guided by each life-map image I have made decisions and invested into those areas of my life. If I was being called to preach in a Church, I needed to study, I needed to volunteer at my local church and be an active member of the congregation and that is what I did. I volunteered as a Sunday School teacher, then as a Women’s Leader and then I was employed as a Community Care Pastor. I studied a Diploma in Christian Counselling and Family Therapy and I went on to do a Masters in Counselling majoring in Pastoral Counselling and the hardest thing of all, I left Nursing. Since I was 11yrs old all I want to be was a nurse. I had made an inner vow, that I would know what to do if I was ever at an accident scene again. I joined St Johns Ambulance Brigade and became the top NSW cadet and by the time I was 14yrs old I wrote to all the top training hospitals in Melbourne to let them know in 4 years time I would like to enrol. I was very determined and not once did I stop to think there could be another path. It was 8 years after the Angels visit before I started to think of preaching and teaching as a career. We had moved to Queensland, our family was expanding, I was volunteering at church and working as a Registered Nurse. Wasn’t that enough? Then God’s voice interrupted my life saying ‘ I have had not called you to be a Nurse, you have the gift to see the pain in other peoples eyes. Another path was to be my destiny. He said “I was to be a rainbow of hope from His caring heart to those who were hurting.” He wanted me to bring hope, identity and purpose. This became the name of the first course I wrote and facilitated, the HIP program was implemented in schools across the Sunshine Coast and Wide Bay Burnett Area and I am proud to say that this course helped over four thousand youth over a seven year period. My career as a counsellor had began I was asked to teach where I had obtained my Diploma at the Australian Institute of Family Counselling. I continued Training in the Community, Business and Leadership sector till 2019, the highlight being the amazing privilege to teach Prayer Counselling to Students whilst they undertook a Pilgrimage to follow Jesus’s footsteps in Israel or St Paul’s in Greece. The Life road map of the vision preaching, was in Greece. There was no way I could have envisioned any of this. I simply said yes to opportunities that aligned with my Life’s road Map, I needed to embrace change, let go of doing things my way and learn. As Gene Mauch states You can‘t lead anyone else further than you have gone yourselfet al. When I went on my own forty day pilgrimage little did I know that six months later, I would be given the opportunity to take student’s overseas to study and assist facilitating their own spiritual pilgrimage. I am grateful for the decisions and the sacrifices I have made along my journey as I would have never had the opportunity to live such an exciting life. Yes I miss Nursing, but tomorrow I will share more about how I was and still am able to be part of the Nursing Community.
Psychology is the scientific study of mind and behavior. Psychology includes the study of conscious and unconscious phenomena, including feelings and thoughts. It is an academic discipline of immense scope, crossing the boundaries between the natural and social sciences
Theology is the systematic study of the nature of the divine and, more broadly, of religious belief. It is taught as an academic discipline, typically in universities and seminaries
Philosophy is the study of general and fundamental questions, such as those about existence, reason, knowledge, values, mind, and language.
Spirituality refer to a subjective experience of a sacred dimension and the “deepest values and meanings by which people live” often in a context separate from organized religious institutions. This may involve belief in the supernatural realm beyond the ordinarily observable world, personal growth ,a quest for an ultimate or sacred meaning and religious experience or an encounter with one’s own “inner dimension.”
Tonight is a music tribute as there is so much wisdom that can be gained through the creative arts of song, poetry, stories and dance. I love it when situations and thoughts just interweave together to form a beautiful tapestry, serendipitous moments that bring synchronicity. Serendipity is an unplanned fortunate discovery. This morning I went into the shop and whilst I was waiting for my order, I picked up an Angel card. The card was Brigid. I immediately took notice as I planned my course that starts in February to start on St Brigid’s day. The 6th of February. I took notice and this is what it read:
“Brigid is here to guide you with song and poetry. She has flowing red hair that releases and the words float around you as you are inspired to write and sing. It has been some time since you have flowed with words and song. Bridget will rise within you to intensify your creativity and passion. Ground yourself by standing with green grass under your feet. Allow your mind to wander to the edge of the Cliff, where you are safe and see the winds bringing the words and the verses to you. Your mind will fill with inspiration and awaken the imagination within you“. Lotus Oracle Book: Unfolding the Flower of Consciousness
Synchronicity according psychologist Carl Jung, is a non-casual event in the external world which coincides with things going on in the internal world, such as our thoughts, feelings and dreams. The song “Colours of the Wind” from Pocahontas had been playing in my mind over and over again for the last two days. So instead of writing what I thought I should write today, I am flowing with guidance from above and inviting you all to paint with the colours of the wind and then dance with me as we fulfil our dreams so we can heal and be free. The symbol from the Angel card today served as a reminder that things exist for a purpose, we need to opens our eyes wide enough to see how things are colliding and interweaving within our lives, and how they might be serving us so we learn from them.
If you see repeating numbers often or animals or flowers, they have been bought to your attention for a reason; be curious. What does this mean to you? You might want to even google what is the spiritual meaning? Jung believed that dreams also had their own language and that things we see in our dreams are not signs that represent one specific idea, but rather fluid images to which we ascribe meaning based on our individual experiences. The images in our dreams are ultimately representations of our own unconscious. Try to remember your dreams, write them down and allow your unconscious mind to speak. The answers to our problems can also be found there.
Enjoy listening to the songs and I have copied the parts of the lyrics that resonate with my heart today. What resonates with you?
You think the only people who are people Are the people who look and think like you But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger You’ll learn things you never knew, never knew
Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain Can you paint with all the colors of the wind Can you paint with all the colors of the wind
We will run and scream You will dance with me We’ll fulfill our dreams and we’ll be free We will be who we are And they’ll heal our scars Sadness will be far away
‘What I found were “coincidences” which were connected so meaningfully that their “chance” concurrence would represent a degree of improbability that would have to be expressed by an astronomical figure.’ Carl Jung, Synchronicity: An Acausal Connecting Principle, Page 21.
Habakkuk 2:2-3 ESV And the Lord answered me: “Write the vision; make it plain on tablets, so he may run who reads it. For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.
Daniel 8:15 ESV When I, Daniel, had seen the vision, I sought to understand it. And behold, there stood before me one having the appearance of a man.
Happy New Year: May the road rise up to meet you. May the wind be always at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face; the rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again, may God hold you in the palm of His hand. (traditional gaelic blessing) This traditional Irish blessing is an ancient Celtic prayer.
“May your troubles be less and your blessings be more, and nothing but happiness come through your door. A wee message to say: Happy Hogmanay. Lang May Yer Lum Reek.” Scottish B
As I sit here on New Year’s Eve, I find that I can look at all the things that have been chaotic and heart-rendering or I can choose to see the good that this year has delivered. I am grateful for the lessons learnt, the achievements obtained and the wisdom I gained through acknowledging my disappointments and my pain. As I read the first day of my 2021 journal and look at the 5 goals that I set, I could look through a critical lens which will only make me feel like I have failed. No, I have not lost weight. No, I have not finished my book, NO, I have not traveled and No, I have not run online workshops but YES, all 4 of my Children are happy. As family is my top value, I am delighted that this goal has been achieved.
In 2021 I have learnt to counting my blessings. For many of us the last 2 years has been a holding pattern, it has been hard to set and achieve goals, because we don’t know what changes will be implemented in this new world. We have had to learn to live on a day-to-day basis, looking at what we can do today and trusting in the decisions we make for the future.
So at the beginning of this year I also started a Spiritual journal and wrote from my heart and soul. Setting goals in a totally new way, I wrote a letter to myself to read tonight, New Year’s Eve. This way is so much kinder and gentler. I can celebrate who I am. I am inspired to continue my journey of living my “best life.”
Good morning beautiful, loving, kind Lyn,
Please stop. Connect to your body and spirit. You have a great mind, but you have been programmed to live there and value that. You have stopped listening to your spirit and your body. Start nurturing your spirituality, invest into personal growth and self -care, have more fun, connect with family and friends. Remember to do the things you love. Stop self-protecting and start living. Trust God that His ways are higher. Be bold, have your voice. Live the life you want to live. Stop worrying about what other people think. Use your voice and allow the pen to write. Stop judging and follow your dreams.
In January 2020 I started to worry, it had been 28 years since The Angel’s visit, and all the 7 moments in time now made sense, so what now? It was with a feeling of doom that I realised that I felt lost, I had no direction! It was scary. I had lost my confidence, now I felt timed, thoughts of “could I and should I” haunted me. I never realised just how blessed I was; to have lived 28 years with a life road map to help guide me when decisions needed to be made and opportunities arose. Those pictures helped me to live my destiny. When the time came to consider moving away from my parents and family, the arial view of driving from Melbourne to the Sunshine Coast helped give me the reassurance that this was in fact part of my future. Little did I know that when I hoped in the car to drive by myself with my 2yr old daughter and a three and half year-old son, that all my family, except my twin, would all follow me and relocate here. We all live within 30 minutes of each other. Yes, I did say drive myself with 2 little ones, unfortunately Steve had to stay in Melbourne a little longer, the job he was working on had been extended. I enjoyed a little road trip stopping along the way at motels and visiting family in Orange and then on the Gold Coast. Just writing and remembering this trip, I have surprised myself with the amount of courage and confidence I had. Or should I say lack of fear? I want to live like that again, living by faith not letting fear roar.
These last two years I have been timid and quiet, I have hibernated. This has not been a COVID thing, it was simply I was lost, and I needed to find myself again. I needed to know my next stage of life. I needed to find the way through this, as I wanted to then be able to teach and help others what I had learnt during my “Dark Night of the Soul” so they too could rise like a Phoenix, because I have come to understand, we all have our dark nights that we all must journey through. To the outside world I have been hibernating, but my spiritual self has learnt to let go of ego, fear, pride and hurt. I have healed wounds from my childhood, I have sought forgiveness and have forgiven. I have silenced fear… (well, turned it down low) and I have a new life map to guide me.
One picture I have been given is me as an 83 years old, and I have published 7 books, people are sitting and listening to me read. I have inspired and taught them. This vision shows I am on the right path, I will still write my book, No I did not finish it this year as per my mind’s goals, but I did achieve my heart and souls goals.
“And just as the Phoenix rose from the ashes, she too will rise. Returning from the flames, clothed in nothing but her strength, more beautiful than ever before” Shannen Heartz.
In yesterday’s blog I promised I would share daily, the seven momentous moments in my time and how each of come to transpire; the moment in time that these visions became my reality. Having these mind pictures has helped me to set goals in a new way or is it ‘as old as time’? As a counsellor I have been taught, and teach, on how to set SMART goals being
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But how do we go about setting goals? Are these goals just a part of our ego and self-will? What about heart driven goals? Or more importantly our souls’ purpose? I have found that the SMART goals set me up for a duality; it is either pass or fail, right or wrong, instead of embracing the learning of a life’s journey. My worldview of duality has meant that I am my own worst critic, I am the ‘mean girl’ and I lack compassion for myself.
When I reflect on my own journey of setting and achieving goals, the most joyful and content I have been are the times I have set heart felt goals that ignite my passion and work within my value system. This has meant that I have surrendered what I think, yes, think what I ‘should do’ versus listening to what my heart and soul calls. It is embracing all aspects of myself when deciding and bringing into alignment mind, heart and soul. So, what does surrender look like? For me it is praying to God asking, “your will be done not mine”. I know what I think is limited to right and wrong and is governed by today’s current paradigm’s and not what could be. I thrive on what is possible or imagined and by stepping out and follow my calling. For this, I need to see from a higher perspective, I need to rise like an liberated eagle and soar high to gain the vision I want. I also need to know that I am supported and not rely on my own strength and to know that I am being guided. This is embracing all of me and using Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT). ACT helps create psychological flexibility by inviting the person to be present, open and to do what matters to them. To do this we need to know what matters to us in life, what are the values and needs that guides our behaviour? We need to observe our thoughts, beliefs and moods as they come and go without attaching meaning or judgement so that we can be open to whatever comes.
My first online course is being launched very soon. It is entitled “Living your Authentic Life”. I will incorporate both spiritual and psychological principals to help you find your own life-map.
Goal setting needs to be inspired by the soul. It needs to be embraced by the heart and then implemented by the mind. For too long we have lobotomised both the heart and the soul and silenced them.
We became so afraid of heart-led decisions that in the mid-20th century, a lobotomy was preformed to control emotions. This was surgical operation involving incision into the prefrontal lobe of the brain to reduced tension or agitation. In essence it was to stop a person from feeling, so decisions would not be guided by the heart. This practice was first banned in 1950, arguing that it was “contrary to the principles of humanity.”
I like to call the original lobotomy, a spiritual lobotomy where we made spiritual practices evil and wrong. If we don’t learn from history we seem to repeat it. In 1258, Pope Alexander IV prohibited the prosecution of witchcraft. Yet a few centuries later, the church reversed its decision because of the Protestant Reformation, and witch hunts began again; most of the accused were executed by burning at the stake or hanging. Single women, widows and the women healers, leaders and prophetesses were particularly and easily targeted. It is sad to note that between the years 1500 and 1660, up to 80,000 suspected witches were put to death in Europe alone, with eighty percent of these being women. These last centuries we have not executed people for their spirituality, but we have definitely lobotomised that aspect of humanity.
Greed, power, capitalism, success and self, have been the goal to aspire too. We have forgotten to nurture our families, our community and our environment. Like many I believe, we are entering into a new Era, where we all can have a voice, and yes our thoughts and values are different to the contemporary thinking.
So dear reader as we look towards 2022 I encourage you to set your goals from a heart and soul space. Take time to just sit, observe what you see, listen, allow thoughts to drift in and out of your mind. Then write:
My intention or goal for this coming year is ……………(Sit and allow it to come to you, don’t question it.)
1. How do I know this is the goal in my future?
2. Why is this goal important?
3. What will I be able to do if I achieve this goal?
4. Things I should remember if I get stuck?
5. What is my promise to myself?
MY first vision/snapshot of me teaching or training became a reality in 2001 when I started teaching the Diploma in Christian Counselling and Family Therapy. I then continued to work in the VET (Vocational Education Training) sector not only training but managing training campuses in partnership with Registered Training Organisations until September 2019. The past two years, I have been the student; learning and unlearning things that no longer serve me or society so that I can teach others what I have learnt, embracing Galileo philosophical thought of “You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him find it within himself.” Over 2022 I will be launching 7 online course that teach “embracing the gnostic and spiritual ways.”
Poem Mary Allison- summarised.
Let the old world meet its fate. No amount of psychoanalysis will cure or stop a broken system from dying. Be the doula for a new earth. You’re infinite potential woven into the tapestry of a new timeline. You’re free now, if you’d like to be. A new earth emerges, let it.
I have learnt not to question but to just observe. When I tried to put this poem into italics, this is the outcome, the poem has been shortened. I have copied and pasted both versions. Perhaps the summarised version is what we need to know for the moment.
Poem Full version by Mary Allison.
An old world is crumbling, let it.The agenda is becoming painfully obvious, let it.People are questioning fabricated lies they’ve been told, let them.Others, are achingly intertwined in a dark domain of inverted reality – let them be.Even as the matrix slowly collapses, it still uses mind games and manipulation to distort the truth, let it.Allow the old reality to crumble.The disproportionate ideologies of Rome to fall.Let an inorganic reality built on global pessimism and materialistic addiction collapse.There is an organic process trying to emerge… let it.Those who have awakened from the matrix will not find salvation in desperately attempting to prove the matrix to itself.Let the matrix reap its own karma, its life cycle unwind, as it has no choice but to reveal itself through clumsy missteps of parabolic paranoia and pathological persuasion.Allow those who have a trauma bond with the matrix, to fall in love with systemic deceit.Humans have to make mistakes to learn. Let them.The time and focus spent detailing the corruption and mechanistic means of a dying society, can be spent building and creating anew.Let the old world meet its fate.No amount of psychoanalysis will cure or stop a broken system from dying.Be the doula for a new earth.You’re infinite potential woven into the tapestry of a new timeline.You’re free now, if you’d like to be.A new earth emerges, let it.- Mary Allison Art: Mark Henson
My prayer became “Open the eyes of my heart Lord, remove the veil of darkness and ignorance with respect to divine and spiritual things. Remove the scales from my eyes so that I can discern the spiritual things contained in both the Bible and the Apocrypha”. I have attached the verses to the end of this blog as they helped me to be open to accepting things that are both illogical and defy reason. I encourage you to read and ponder over them too. Interesting fact: Angels are mentioned in the bible two hundred and seventy-three times. When you then read the Apocrypha, the book of Tobit, Sirach, Macabee’s, Wisdom and even Enoch, you start to wonder why did these books get removed from the bible? Why did man fear things from the spiritual realm? These questions have led me to research history and look through a different lens and different texts from midcentury. It is often said that ’history is written by the victor,’ which implies that history is subjective, a narrative or story not based on fact rather it is the victor’s interpretation of the events that they wish to propagate. As I studied my Master in Pastoral Counselling at the Australian Catholic University, I learnt more about Christian mysticism and the Gnostics ways, a particular poem St John of the Cross, called “The dark night of the Soul” really resonated with me, it helped me to not feel alone in my search for understanding and connection. I realized that for centuries, many have sat in that dark unknown space, desperately calling out to God. Trying to see what the truth is and what is in fact is just the dominant cultural worldview.
6.1.1992: I woke last night hearing my grandmother’s voice saying “Do not be afraid, your fear stops you from hearing from the heavens, listen to the Angel in the room and write down all he shows you.” With that a bright light started glowing in the corner of my room, I looked over there stood a giant Angel his head was nearly touching the roof. He was radiant but what really caught my attention was a little boy who looked to be about three years of age. The Angel asked me to look and there on the wall was a slide show, a series of photos or snapshots of time. The first picture was me teaching. The second was me, working with pregnant women, my hands were touching their hands. The third, I was in a church preaching. The fourth was an arial view of the road from Melbourne to the Sunshine Coast. The fifth I was much older, and I was on a stage teaching people. The sixth was a sack of money under a tree. I asked the Angel about the little boy standing next to him he said you’ll know when the time is right. The glow in the room then faded and I was left with the comforting sounds of my husband’s breathing as he continued to sleep.
This January it will have been 30 years since I was visited by this Angel who I have since learnt is Archangel Uriel. Uriel is the angel of wisdom who shines the light of God’s truth into the darkness of confusion. Uriel means God is my Light or Fire of God. Over the next 7 days I will share how each of these photos or snapshots of time have helped guide me. This is my 12 days of Christmas, this is my journey to enlightenment. No, I have not found a sack of money under a tree, it was a cryptic message. To me it has meant; do not worry about money, instead follow your passion and God will provide. I have since learnt that cryptic messages also have layers being personal, family and community messages. Thirty years after meeting Uriel, I am finally launching my new website, where online training, spiritual counselling and pre-orders for my fiction book will be available, it will go LIVE on Epiphany day, 6th of January and I invite you all to join me on this journey.
Mathew 17: verses 1-9, Jesus took Peter, James and John up a high mountain. He was transfigured – his face shone like the sun and his clothes became dazzling white. Moses and Elijah appeared with Jesus. Peter offered to put up three shelters. A bright cloud enveloped them and a voice said, “This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased. Listen to him.”
Mathew 27 Verse 28 the Angel said to the women do not be afraid I know that you are looking for Jesus.
1 Corinthians 2:14 The natural person does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are folly to him, and he is not able to understand them because they are spiritually discerned.
On the 4th day of Christmas my true love said to me; “It’s time to introduce your angels and ancestors. The debate between theology and experiential cannot be explained or reasoned away; it’s time for you to speak your truth and share a few of your experiences.” Following up on the story of the of Sleeping Beauty, you may recall there are 3 fairies that come to help. In the original texts these women were not fairies in fact they were wisewomen. In the Apocrypha from the Greek bible another verse from Sirach really gave food for thought. As in Sirach 33 verse 24 “the wisdom of this scribe depends on the opportunity of leisure only the one with little business can become wise.” In today’s society where we value busyness and achievement, it’s so hard to take the time to just stop, reflect, meditate and learn to just be.
I have known for the last two years or even longer that my goal has been to spend a third of my time with clients, a third online, and the other third writing my book and yet I work full time with my clients. I don’t stop. I try to squeeze in extra hours to the day and I am left exhausted and unfulfilled. Now, I know how to set goals and I am a high achiever and busyness is my addiction; actually, was my addiction. It has nearly been 10 years since I went on my first forty-day pilgrimage and in this time, I have learned the value of just being; of taking time, out of sitting in the unknown and in the silence as this is where we hear the answers to the cries of our soul. It is a place where we come face to face with the constructs of our life. Where we take off the glasses of all that we thought we knew, and we start to see more clearly and learn to ask more questions. While sitting in church one Easter, day I had heard the Easter story so many times before that I decided I would read the bible instead. I opened to the book of Matthew 27 v 21 AND oh my gosh! I could not believe what I was reading! It was like I was reading a totally new book, I had never noticed or comprehended what was written. In Mathew 27v 21 “at the moment Jesus takes his last breath the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook, and the rocks were split. The tomb was also opened and many bodies of Saints who had fallen asleep were raised. After his resurrection they came out of the tombs and entered the holy city and appeared too many.” WOW celebration and liberation. The saints who had fallen asleep were seen by many. Perhaps there is more to learn about the spiritual realm! Rather than fear it, we should embrace it. For too long I had been careful with whom I could share my personal experiences of angel visitation and visits from my ancestors. Over the next couple of weeks I searched the scriptures. I needed answers, how could I explain hearing the voice of my deceased maternal Grandmother’s voice. Many years earlier I heard her voice telling me “Do not be afraid, your fear stops you from hearing from the heavens, listen to the Angel in the room and write down all he shows you.” Tomorrow I will write a transcript of my journal from that night, as that night planted a seed within me; that I have nurtured and fought with, for the last 30 years. It was the 6th of January 1992. That seedling is now a tree with roots, a strong trunk and ready to bear fruit. Tomorrows blog will explore some of my learning from the holy scriptures that gave me the freedom to release my fear and see in the spirit. Angels first appeared to the women I wonder why?
I have spent the day procrastinating, finding other things to do rather than sit down and write. What am I so scared of? What is it that I don’t want to face? It is fear, fear of standing out, fear of saying the wrong thing, fear of condemnation and fear of rejection and fear of getting it wrong. It feels so heavy just sitting here and acknowledging the games my mind play, which paralysis me with thoughts like, ” Who do you think you are? Why would people even bother reading what you write? What if you are wrong? What makes you think your readings, research and insights are interesting? BUT then I call on God and hear Spirit of Wisdom and I hear, “I am with you.” and I read Wisdom 715 May God grant me to speak as he would wish and conceive thoughts worthy of the gifts I have received, since he is both guide to Wisdom and director of sages. Reading this sentence I am entering into the next stage of life becoming the Sage and I want to be directed by both God and the Spirit of Wisdom. A sage as stated in the in the Collins Dictionary is a person who is regarded as being very wise and knowledgable especially as a result of a lot of experience. Synonyms are philosopher, expert, authority or expert. So tonight I write with trepidation and resolve. I have worked over the last 35 plus years firstly as a Registered Nurse, then a Registered Counsellor along side being a Community Care Pastor and a Minister of Religion, an accredited trainer, having taught over 900 students in Counselling or Community welfare work and have had the honour of taking students on Pilgrimages to Israel and Greece and undertaken 2 personal life changing Pilgrimages. I have a Masters in Pastoral Counselling, I have spoken at International, receive royalties for some training and I have life experience and yet I still feel like I am a fraud. Imposter syndrome has kicked in! Can I really do this! Can I question the dominant paradigm and world constructs that form the matrix of the society we live in? And yet the little quiet voice inside me, says “if not you, who? ” I re-read Wisdom 7 and my courage strengthens and my soul starts to bubble up with joy, as this journey is one of freedom and excitement. Where we can embrace our spirituality and arise from our slumber, celebrate the solstice, the different seasons, the stars above and embrace the power of spirits and human mental processes and the medical properties of plants. It is time for us ALL to arise like sleeping beauty. For too long we have been asleep, and ensnarled by the brambles and thorns of fear. As I step out in faith and allow my spiritual eyes and ears to hear, my world expands.
Wisdom Chapter 7. I too am mortal like everyone else, a descendant of the first man formed from the earth. I was modelled in flesh inside a mother’s womb, 2 where, for ten months, in blood I acquired substance — the result of virile seed and pleasure, sleep’s companion.3 I too, when I was born, drew in the common air, I fell on the same ground that bears us all, and crying was the first sound I made, like everyone else.4 I was nurtured in swaddling clothes, with every care.5 No king has known any other beginning of existence;6 for there is only one way into life, and one way out of it.7 And so I prayed, and understanding was given me; I entreated, and the spirit of Wisdom came to me.8 I esteemed her more than sceptres and thrones; compared with her, I held riches as nothing.9 I reckoned no precious stone to be herequal, for compared with her, all gold is a pinch of sand, and beside her, silver ranks as mud.10 I loved her more than health or beauty, preferred her to the light, since her radiance never sleeps.11 In her company all good things came to me, and at her hands incalculable wealth. 12 All these delighted me, since Wisdom brings them, though I did not then realise that she was their mother.13 What I learned diligently, I shall pass on liberally, I shall not conceal how rich she is.14 For she is to human beings an inexhaustible treasure, and those who acquire this win God’s friendship, commended to him by the gifts of instruction.15 May God grant me to speak as he would wish and conceive thoughts worthy of the gifts I have received, since he is both guide to Wisdom and director of sages;16 for we are in his hand, yes, ourselves and our sayings, and all intellectual and all practical knowledge.17 He it was who gave me sure knowledge of what exists, to understand the structure of the world and the action of the elements,18 the beginning, end and middle of the times, the alternation of the solstices and the succession of the seasons,19 the cycles of the year and the position of the stars,20 the natures of animals and the instincts of wild beasts, the powers of spirits and human mental processes, the varieties of plants and the medical properties of roots.21 And now I understand everything, hidden or visible, for Wisdom, the designer of all things, has instructed me.22 For within her is a spirit intelligent, holy, unique, manifold, subtle, mobile, incisive, unsullied, lucid, invulnerable, benevolent, shrewd,23 irresistible, beneficent, friendly to human beings, steadfast, dependable, unperturbed, almighty, all-surveying, penetrating all intelligent, pure and most subtle spirits.24 For Wisdom is quicker to move than any motion; she is so pure, she pervades and permeates all things.25 She is a breath of the power of God.