My prayer became “Open the eyes of my heart Lord, remove the veil of darkness and ignorance with respect to divine and spiritual things. Remove the scales from my eyes so that I can discern the spiritual things contained in both the Bible and the Apocrypha”. I have attached the verses to the end of this blog as they helped me to be open to accepting things that are both illogical and defy reason. I encourage you to read and ponder over them too. Interesting fact: Angels are mentioned in the bible two hundred and seventy-three times. When you then read the Apocrypha, the book of Tobit, Sirach, Macabee’s, Wisdom and even Enoch, you start to wonder why did these books get removed from the bible? Why did man fear things from the spiritual realm? These questions have led me to research history and look through a different lens and different texts from midcentury. It is often said that ’history is written by the victor,’ which implies that history is subjective, a narrative or story not based on fact rather it is the victor’s interpretation of the events that they wish to propagate. As I studied my Master in Pastoral Counselling at the Australian Catholic University, I learnt more about Christian mysticism and the Gnostics ways, a particular poem St John of the Cross, called “The dark night of the Soul” really resonated with me, it helped me to not feel alone in my search for understanding and connection. I realized that for centuries, many have sat in that dark unknown space, desperately calling out to God. Trying to see what the truth is and what is in fact is just the dominant cultural worldview.
6.1.1992: I woke last night hearing my grandmother’s voice saying “Do not be afraid, your fear stops you from hearing from the heavens, listen to the Angel in the room and write down all he shows you.” With that a bright light started glowing in the corner of my room, I looked over there stood a giant Angel his head was nearly touching the roof. He was radiant but what really caught my attention was a little boy who looked to be about three years of age. The Angel asked me to look and there on the wall was a slide show, a series of photos or snapshots of time. The first picture was me teaching. The second was me, working with pregnant women, my hands were touching their hands. The third, I was in a church preaching. The fourth was an arial view of the road from Melbourne to the Sunshine Coast. The fifth I was much older, and I was on a stage teaching people. The sixth was a sack of money under a tree. I asked the Angel about the little boy standing next to him he said you’ll know when the time is right. The glow in the room then faded and I was left with the comforting sounds of my husband’s breathing as he continued to sleep.
This January it will have been 30 years since I was visited by this Angel who I have since learnt is Archangel Uriel. Uriel is the angel of wisdom who shines the light of God’s truth into the darkness of confusion. Uriel means God is my Light or Fire of God. Over the next 7 days I will share how each of these photos or snapshots of time have helped guide me. This is my 12 days of Christmas, this is my journey to enlightenment. No, I have not found a sack of money under a tree, it was a cryptic message. To me it has meant; do not worry about money, instead follow your passion and God will provide. I have since learnt that cryptic messages also have layers being personal, family and community messages. Thirty years after meeting Uriel, I am finally launching my new website, where online training, spiritual counselling and pre-orders for my fiction book will be available, it will go LIVE on Epiphany day, 6th of January and I invite you all to join me on this journey.
Mathew 17: verses 1-9, Jesus took Peter, James and John up a high mountain. He was transfigured – his face shone like the sun and his clothes became dazzling white. Moses and Elijah appeared with Jesus. Peter offered to put up three shelters. A bright cloud enveloped them and a voice said, “This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased. Listen to him.”
Mathew 27 Verse 28 the Angel said to the women do not be afraid I know that you are looking for Jesus.
1 Corinthians 2:14 The natural person does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are folly to him, and he is not able to understand them because they are spiritually discerned.